Highs and Lows of 2010

Lows:

• An absolute DISASTROUS spring semester of my first year of college: My roommate and I, well let’s just say it didn't work out. My roommate and I had differing opinions on privacy; she thought our double room for 2 needed an extra person ALL THE TIME. I trusted someone with a lot and that trust was betrayed. It took a lot to get over it and to be honest I am not quite over it yet, but I am working on it. Now, water under the bridge, I wish her nothing but the best.
• C-A-W-L: A once wonderful facility where I grew up is being run and manipulated by one poisonous woman. I don't want to be mean but I hope she is kicked out of group before she implodes the entire organization. This woman is a manipulative child living in a 40 some year olds body. I am glad I got out when I did.
• Crappy sports seasons: Not only are the Miami Dolphins inconsistent, they don't know how to pass or run the ball. They need to step up their game; their difficult division makes it almost impossible to make it to a super bowl. Come on boys we were once UNDEFEATED! The Florida Marlins on the other hand are a disgrace! They need to step up, pay their players what they are worth and instead of turning rookies into all stars keep these all stars and make it to a world series. First Mistake: releasing Cody Ross. Second, Dan Uggla, now let's see what they do to screw up yet another season!
• 10 years since Grampy died: I can't believe it has been 10 years since you have passed. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I truly believe my love of sports is because of you. I love you and miss you and hope you are having fun playing tennis and watching the Marlins lose up in heaven <3
• Losing touch with a very close friend of mine: I hope everything is OK. I feel you have drastically changed and we no longer have anything in common. I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors but I just don't agree with some of your choices!!!

Highs

•  Having awesome, wonderful, supportive roommates: I love these girls. They truly are a blessing after my hell f a spring semester that was hell. They are open and wonderful. They listen to me, calm me down and are absolute gems. (All 3 of them). They truly don't know how much I appreciate them and how much they have already made me a better person!!
• Hooking up with old friends...now my best friends: Cori and Jess you guys are AMAZING!! I love both of you so much. Cori, you are outgoing, fun and entertaining. I wish I could be as open as you are. Jess, you are quiet yet HILARIOUS and I love how much you care and appreciate your family (whether you admit it or not). I don't know where I would be if I didn't reconnect with you two! You have no idea how much you are appreciated!!!
• Bella and Jazzy: We adopted to new girls to keep Daisy company, Bella is a crazy, out of control lovable puppy who is certifiably ADORABLE. And jazzy is sweet, mellow and just wants to be loved.
• My impending trip to Israel: I am so excited to be seeing a country where both my parents visited. I can't believe I am leaving in a month of this crazy trip with a wonderful old friend. We are going to have a blast, I can't wait!

High/Low: Being contacted by my biological father. Now this may not be the place to talk about this but I feel if anyone is going to read this is going to be friends and family. I couldn't decide if I should put this as a high or a low. First off, I have been waiting a very long time to hear from him. I have written many letters that I never sent, had many questions go unanswered, and daydreamed countless nights that somehow I was a princess destined to marry Prince William. Upon contact, I was able to get these questions answered and some other questions out of the way but it sure was a shake up to my family. I have known my step-dad (my "real" dad) since before I can remember. He is a great guy and is a positive role model. My biggest fear in beginning to talk to my biological father was to upset my real father (I know confusing). My real father has been there my whole life, practically raised me. This is a high in that I got questions answered and I am able to talk to him, I really do appreciate it and a relationship is nice to have. But a low at to the uncertainty as to what is to come and the impact it could have had on my family. At first I was much taken aback and for lack of a better word, hysterical but I do appreciate talking to him now and learning about his past and a half of myself that before had only been assumptions, and questions marks.

Well there it is, my year in review. Plenty of highs and lows to go around. but all in all a pretty good year. I grew up a lot, changed a lot but I think it all was for the better. I am very secure in myself and my friends and look forward to another amazing year!

Winter times

Christmas (and winter in general) is a beautiful time of year. Snow on the ground, in the trees, and on the roofs of houses. Everywhere you look a "Kodak moment" awaits. I love driving through my neighborhood and seeing Christmas trees lite in the front windows, families sitting around the tale, kids playing outside just happy to have a few weeks off from school. But winter also brings painfully cold winds, red faces and sniffles to everyone's nose. Don't get me wrong I do love winter time but after a few weeks I can't help but to picture myself tanning in the Caribbean.

Being Jewish, you can't help but want to partake in Christmas traditions every year. Yes, we get 8 days of presents during Hanukkah but as Jews we are the minority and instead of waking up early to open presents, ecstatic to see how many gifts are under the beautifully decorated tree, we go to Chinese restaurants and see a movie because those are the only things open. Yes Christmas is commercialized. Yes some people don't celebrate Christmas for the religious reasons but the traditions families enstill are wonderful. The big meal, family, friends, what more can you ask for. People travel far and wide (and hopefully don't get snow delays) to see family. They buy last minute gifts, spend time wrapping everything and then in the morning have quality family time. I must say I am a little jealous every December 25th.

I have spent Christmases with family, getting to open gifts that were under the tree, and even once my cousin and I swore we heard reindeer on the roof. But today I went to a friends house, they have a 4 year old and a newborn. I got to spend some time with Brietta, the 4 year old and the innocence of a child is priceless.  Watching her open presents was a BLAST she was so excited for each one and really looked at all of her gifts, saying thank you to everyone for giving them to her. She was so sweet wanting to play with each one as we opened them with her. This day alone makes me want to marry someone Christian, just to have these days, with such innocence from children, still believing that an old bearded man comes through with his reindeer and delivers gifts if you were nice all year. This is the one day out of the year I wish I celebrated Christmas

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas with their family and friends. The one day of the year where you turn the news on and you see smiling children and happy families without news of war, or crime.

This is me with  the cutest 4 year old, Brietta after opening her Christmas presents.

What's to come?

I am halfway through my sophomore year of college and I can't help but wonder when the light at the end of the tunnel will finally appear. I get up everyday during the semester and wonder if all the work I put into these classes are worth it. Will I get into Nursing school? Where will I get in? Will I be at Towson next year? What does my future hold? What if I don't get in? What if I have to move back home. These questions are on a never ending reel circling in my head 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

I question myself every day. My friends and family tell me I'll get in..maybe not in Towson but somewhere. I don't want to go anywhere else. I want to stay at Towson with my friends. I want to be a successful nurse. I want to help people and heal them but I don't can't promise my road will be without speed bumps.

I wish life could be smooth sailing. I wish I didn't have to worry. I wish I could see 1 year into my future. I wish the nursing application I just submitted get me somewhere in life. I wish to not see rejection. I wish everyday that my hopes and dreams come true.

Untitled

I always wonder why guys think girls are so hard to understand. To me we are perfectly understandable, we hide our emotions and when we aren't acting "normal" we are either PMSing or upset about something...not that difficult right? To me boys are so much harder to understand, you think there is something there and then your hopes come crashing down. A girl goes from liking a guy, writing his name in her notebook, to daydreaming about their wedding day.

In elementary school girls learn that a boy likes you if he bullies you and pulls your hair. I'm in college and it’s pretty much the same. Girls hook up with random guys at parties; guys hook up with as many girls as they can and then show off to their guy friends after. People make charts trying to do a "6 degrees of separation" type thing and hook up with people just to make another connection. You hook up with someone a friend has hooked up with and boom you're on this chart. So dumb, why can't kissing be with someone you have a steady relationship with? Why can't you start with a date, holding hands, hugging, then move to kissing. Don't boys still have cooties?

Also, why do guys think that girls need to make the first move? Is it so hard to want a fairy tale meet? Running into someone in the hallway or bumping into them, papers flying everywhere and its love at first sight. Why can't a relationship happen that way? Why does it have to be awkward or uncomfortable? I hate how you found a good guy and really started to like him but of course, he likes someone else; such is life I guess.
P.S. To all guys, most girls want a fairy tale. They want to be a princess, and you to be their prince.

~~Just My Opinion

Intro

So I decided to write a blog, there's a first time for everything right? Anyways I thought this would be a good place to rant, tell stories, scream, laugh etc...I'm not to sure how these things work and all but I'm guessing it can't be too hard, I'll learn as I go. I'm hoping to continue writing through my Winter trip to Israel and the spring semester of my sophomore year. Look for the next edition, volume, post thing to come shortly.

P.S. Please excuse any spelling or grammar errors  :)